I am telling you..
August 4, 2010
If I come back, I will be a gospel singer. Something about these songs and voices touch a deep, indescribable part of me. This song has not stopped playing in my head for a few weeks now…
I have felt like this before, when I was young and in love. I am in love now, deeply, but this song does not resonate at all with my relationship, so why wont this song leave me?
I pondered this in the car this morning it came to me – my eldest daughter. She is 15. She is growing up. And I aint leaving. I guess the concept of letting go of love takes many forms. No one prepared me for the pain of watching someone grow up and away. My happiness does not depend on this child. I am blessed to have her, and I know I will always have her, but the act of parenting, immediate parenting, daily parenting, disappears so very quickly.